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25 Today…

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A letter to my son.

Ethan,
25 Today… I have been preparing for the days to celebrate your milestones since you were born all those years ago. To encourage you and help you know you have what it takes. In the joy of being your mom, I choose to continue to see and celebrate today on this earthly timeline… I know you hear as I speak out the joy of your life. I know you see as I make your favorites for us to remember you with… homemade Mac ‘n Cheese with the sharpest cheddar, charcuterie fixings, sushi rolls, and the simple yellow cake with chocolate frosting. Yet, wishing all the while to hear your voice and laughter in the day.

25… When I say “happy birthday…” you will answer me from your heavenly place… words I cannot hear where I am on this earthly path …Radio Silence.
So, I will turn to a few recordings which continue to stir within me the deeper longing that will never leave me. Pastor Levi speaks of this Radio Silence in chapter 22 of his book “The Last Supper on the Moon” (an aside: fitting it should be the 22nd chapter actually, if you find it in your heavenly library, I highly recommend it… on second thought, you are with Jesus whom the book is about!). I cannot help but know that the Radio Silence is broken for you now… as you stand whole and complete in the throne room of Jesus presence.

25… Standing at this doorway today, the one where you grow older elsewhere was supposed to be about watching your earthly adventures. I desperately want to see you soar with your many talents, such as in the bygone days of hockey life. Honestly, I am still in the stands shouting your name as I envision you skate effortlessly by
… go! go! go bud go!… …go! go! go ETHAN go!…
Instead, the doorway represents the separation that death is until I am beckoned homeward to the same shore. Your dash, the line between two dates, is done. How you lived in the dash is remarkable! So, I stand in the doorway now and choose to see my joy for you on your 25th birthday.

25… If you were here what would I say to impart the significance of this day? As I remember all the details of your 22 years of this earthly life, I think of how your courage, capacity and intensity interrupted our lives from the beginning. How you land on your feet, sure and strong, every where you go. How the Lord brought you to Purdue University and helped you discover what you were made for. How HE knit within you such an engineering mindset and the characteristics of… “intelligence with innovation, knowledge with great flexibility, a high degree of skill without over-training, fear but not cowardice, bravery without recklessness, self-confidence without egotism, physical skill with humility, frugal, contented, humorous without disproportion, fast reflexes without panic in a crisis, laughter with peculiarity, trusting spirit without lacking curiosity, and quick whit with care for others”. How you built community into the landscape around you, which still lives on to this day. The Lord created you to be the many faceted diamond that President Daniels described on your Graduation Day at Purdue. I know from the deepest joy of being your mom, I will wait for the Lord and I will see Him redeem these days so that I have the chance to yet again see your smile, hear your voice and tell you how much you are loved and that you have what it takes!

Until that day…

Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

Music by Mark Harris: The Line Between The Two

Always Remember, JOLTeON!

JOLT-ON! 2025 MEMORIAL GAME DAYS: GHIBLI ADVENTURES

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Entering 2025 was honestly very difficult. I knew it would mark another year, the 3rd, without Ethan’s physical presence. However, THIS year has another ring to the longing of sharing life with him. It would be his 25th…

In honor of Ethan’s amazing capacity to share life through creativity, artwork and story telling, we have chosen to frame this years remembering activities through his love of Studio Ghibli. To those who choose to remember Ethan with us, we invite you to look back on the years of having him near through the ways he shared it with each of us. I have learned that sharing Ethan’s joyful spirit, now that he is heavenward, brings the color of his life back into focus. So, ending year three provides another chance to remember how he loved all of us by sharing his joys with us.

WHAT: JOLT-ON 2025 Memorial Game Days remembering Ethan through the world of Studio Ghibli

Ethan loved to share his favorite characters and story elements. He found unique ways to weave Ghibli life into the days we were with him.

WHEN: May 30th through June 9th, 2025

This time period starts on Ethan’s 25th Birthday and ends with his Heaven day. You are welcome to extend out into the year ahead if your timeline of remembering is further along in the calendar.

SCHEDULE: Wang Family Events to Remember

Our Family will remember Ethan with the following activities and will share them here during the Memorial Game Days:

  • Studio Ghibli Film Festival 2025 – check your local movie theater locations for their current schedule of Ghibli fan favorite movies. You can see the full listing of movie features showcased between May 15th and the end of September this year at gkids.com.
  • Ghibli inspired art/craft activities – we will share with you the joyful ways Ethan brought the characters of Ghibli movies to life.
  • Ghibli gear. A commemorative Memorial edition t-shirt is available for Ethan’s 25th Birthday. These t-shirts are available from Stickermule.com and showcase the characters of Princess Mononoke as the 2025 JOLT-ON! graphic and are just $19 (we do not make a profit as these are sold at cost through the StickerMule website). Simply a fun way to remember and carry Ethan with us. They ship pretty fast too! Choose from:
    – San and Moro
    – Ahitaka and Yakul
  • TBD: Studio Ghibli Trivia Night – stay tuned for the date!

HOW: Set aside time to remember Ethan the stories of Studio Ghibli

Here are some creative ideas to encourage you to join us…

  • Host a Studio Ghibli watch party with your friends and share a new title together. Two of Ethan’s favorites are Princess Mononoke and Spirited Away! Your local library should have the movies for borrowing or stream from your favorite service.
  • Play the video game Ni No Kuni I or II on the Playstation 3 or 4, PC, or Nintendo Switch platforms.
  • Create origami characters from the movies.
  • Remember food favorites and gather friends to enjoy them with you… Ghibli inspired snacks, ramen, sushi, gimbap… just to name a few!
  • Host a Ghibli themed trivia night. Encourage friends in competitive fun with the movies and characters as you gather to remember!
  • Wear a favorite Ghibli gear/t-shirt on Ethan’s would be 25th birthday (May 30th) and Leap Day (June 9th).

We are looking forward to all the ways you are remembering Ethan as this third year comes to a close! Please share in the comments below. If you have a file or image to include, please email it to jolton@wfour.net and we will add it to your comment post.

God Sightings, Holiday Life

An Eclectic Mothers Day

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Reflecting on this mothers day, 2025, the chance to be a mom is not a role for the faint at heart. Becoming a mom has been a journey of the highest highs and lowest lows… of the greatest loves and most profound losses. Today, I woke with tears for the one whom is now heavenward with Jesus… and, in the same breath, with purpose to share the day with the one whom is just about ready to set out into young adulthood. It is a choice everyday to get out of bed and choose to see there is still a purpose filled life waiting just beyond the doorway… splitting myself in two in order to step through it to what is on the other side.

At breakfast, I was reminded of a mom I had the privilege of knowing many years ago, Sue Delhotal. I met Sue during the early years of becoming a mom when she was working alongside her family on their farm growing crops and raising goats. Sue shared her life openly and honestly, always encouraging and teaching. She is now heavenward; however, while she was with us, she taught me a most profound understanding about mothers day. She would share every year her heart for being a mom to her amazing children (Jeffery, David and Sarah) and gratitude for the opportunity to become their mom. She imparted the gift the Lord has given through the heritage of her children.

Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one’s youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.
Psalm 127:3-5

I have never forgotten her words which now ring even louder as I see my own children taking flight before my eyes. Both Ethan and Noah have made me a mother. So, I choose to live each day with purpose toward remembering the gift of motherhood my heavenly father has given. He has also recently introduced me to many more moms along this journey… each one with a remarkable heart for being mom to their children. Each one challenged with the burden of carrying the weight of child loss too early in this life and courageous to walk with me in the waiting… towards the day we see Jesus face to face.

Today, we determined to head out to adventure somewhere in our community together before ending the day back at our table. It was a day of fellowship we do not usually get during the busyness of the weeks as they pass by. We ended up at Half Price Books mid-day and came away with the very eclectic mix of finds (pictured above) a few hours later… nod to the selection of Pokemon cards, new reads, a movie to complete the sequels already in our cabinet, music to encourage and Ghibli coffee table fun as we came away with something for everyone in our home! It is days like these where the Lord reminds me to slow down and savor the gift of being a mom. Where he shows me He alone is carrying the weight of the day and graciously sharing His abundant joy regardless of circumstances.

Purdue Life

If You Build It… esports Gaming Life at Purdue University

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It has been an honor to keep step with the gaming life and events at Purdue University, West Lafayette. I have mentioned it often how heavily involved Ethan (Jolteon79) was in the gaming community during his four years of Material Science Engineering undergraduate studies. In those years while leading in Clubs, Ethan was encouraged by Jason Maynard, Senior Assistant Director of Sport Programs at the Purdue Recreation and Wellness center, to build esports community. I am humbled by the work Jason has pressed forward with and grateful to get to know him.

At the start of this summer, I received word from Jason that the dream of a focused esports program at Purdue would be a reality much sooner than anticipated. In June, Dell Technologies and Purdue announced an agreement to establish the APGL, one of the largest dedicated collegiate gaming facilities in the country. Our family was glad in 2022 when the Boiler Game Mine opened at the Memorial Union on campus. The BGM allowed the Splatoon @ Purdue Club, along with many other Purdue Gaming Clubs, to continue in the efforts of building esports life with a dedicated space. Now, with the news from Dell, Jason excitedly let me know the esports hub of gaming Ethan had collaborated with him towards was now a reality!

I traveled to Purdue in West Lafayette Thursday, August 15th, for the grand opening ceremony of the Alienware Purdue Gaming Lounge (APGL). The Lounge is truly an inspiring 2000 square foot space on the lower level of the Co-Rec situated in the heart of campus. Congratulations to Jason Maynard who communicated his vision for what could be possible and for seeing it through. Thank you to Mike Warren for hearing and believing in what Jason communicated as a need and working to bring it forward to today.

“The esports ecosystem at Purdue is thriving, with thousands of students actively participating,” said Mike Warren, senior director of Recreation & Wellness at Purdue. “Whether students are looking to get casually involved or compete at higher levels, we are excited to support gaming here at Purdue RecWell, showcasing the latest technology.”

I was blessed to be a part of the energy of the grand opening day. Sharing the joy of this building work with Jason, celebrating achievements with the new Splatoon @ Purdue Club leadership, and seeing the amazing technology that Dell brought to the space with Alienware. It was fun meeting up with Katie Sermersheim, Dean of Students, in the viewing gallery and hearing her excitement for the esports program. Meeting students on staff for APGL gave me an appreciation for the ecosystem that has been steadily building. The Varsity Team room and Purdue Broadcasting studio are incredible! There will be great commentating and tournaments ahead!

There was plenty of time to sit in awe of what the last six years have been about… building a dream one step at a time. I recall Ethan’s efforts in Club life, both Splatoon @ Purdue and Pokemon Draft League with the Battle Association of Purdue. My memories brought back his excitement from April 9th of 2022 when he welcomed teams from Michigan State University to Purdue campus for the first in-person Collegiate LAN event featuring more than two collegiate teams representing their university. The Splatoon @ Purdue RecWell esports Intercollegiate Invitational was held at the Co-Rec that April as a foreshadowing of what has now become esports on campus.

I marvel at the opportunity and potential for students ahead. Purdue now a part of the Collegiate esports scene with Varsity teams is everything our son worked toward with Jason during his time on campus.

Such an amazing Giant Leap again at Purdue University this week!

I always carry
Jolteon79
in my heart!

I know he was right there with us in the APGL on Thursday… laughing, smiling and overjoyed for this dream come true!

Always Remember, God Sightings, JOLTeON!

JOLTeON! Community In Action

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My women’s bible study is a strong force, my heart community. These women are my sisters in Christ in these days as we walk out life together. We have spent over a year together in the book of Romans and recently finished the study of this intense book of Paul’s most inspiring work in sharing Jesus with us in the bible. We all gracefully gave each other space to take it slow, sit with the verses where challenged, grow together. In celebration of it all, our group came together to share and laugh this week.

These women are the best at lifting me up out of the mire of grief and loss. The best at encouraging and praying through the challenges of living life now. We experienced another JOLTeON build together, this time with LEGO’s beautiful flowers! Thank you ladies for sharing your stories at the table and doing this life with me… even in the bricks! You are all amazing!

Looking forward to finishing the second part of our build and continuing to live out the life of the teachings of Paul through Romans with you all.

Let me say it!
These flowers are complex and challenging! This is a treasure that I will keep always in remembering our time together!

LEGO Botanical Collections keep growing… encouraging us to always be in awe and wonder of our Lord’s creation even when we are not outside in nature.

The teacher in our midst, Nancy, brought not only the LEGO’s but had these really great trays to help us keep things in place. Dollar Store Find! Thanks for making it happen AND awesome, Nancy!

Vacation Life

Easily Distracted by Tanks…

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Noah had an amazing Sophomore year! Running hard with Speech, eSports and FCA Club life, HS Men’s bible study, straight A student with several Honors courses, amazing math skills, Fall season with Pipeline Volleyball, broken arm and learning to drive. He supported two teachers this last year as a Teachers Assistant in the science department and conquered a lot of math! He has really found a passion for chemistry, history and military vehicles… primarily TANKS!

As he ended school and we entered into our 2nd June of remembering Ethan, we know his brother would be so proud of him. Joel and I certainly are! We purposed to travel in the days right after school let out to keep our minds on the Lord and his creation, learning about His world in places we have never been before. In the midst of the woods of Minnesota, we found the perfect gift for Noah and spent the day celebrating his accomplishments. You might not believe it, but he actually drove two tanks! Here’s the fun of the day…

Tank Garage at the Drive A Tank yard

Traveling out to the course in a 5 ton transport after briefing… Anticipation beyond measure!
It was a stormy and rainy day. ALL. DAY. LONG. Hordes of mosquitoes. Muddy. This was a perfect day to drive a tank!

To say that Noah is “easily distracted by tanks” is an understatement. These military beasts have become common conversation in our house. As he prepared for his Speech tournaments this last year, he wrote his own speech focused on the history, present and future of tanks in warfare. His voice always energetic and exciting as he speaks. It is fun to see him have such passion for it all. Standing in the tank garage in Kasota, Minnesota was awesome to hear him share his knowledge of each vehicle in front of us. Being in the drivers seat now a dream come true for this teen who is still working on his hours towards a drivers license!

Driving a FV433 Abbot SPG and a FV432 APC heads up and periscope style over the muddy course… splashing into ponds and through the woods. We were his passengers on each tank!

Many thanks to the team at Drive A Tank for making the time so memorable, so unforgettable. Even more… for giving our family the space to learn, share, celebrate, and encouragement towards our son. They exceeded our expectations beyond measure. We witnessed another participant in our group crush a car and mingled with the men who work on these beasts, learning more about tank life. So cool!

We also must tell of our antics at the local thrift store… in our excitement and to gift this time as a surprise to Noah, we did NOT come prepared. On the road, Joel and I realized that we failed to plan what to WEAR! Upon arriving at the hotel, we broke the news of our surprise and promptly ran to the local Good Will. Here we are in the gear we were able to outfit ourselves with for the day… shoes, boots, and jackets!

Always Remember, JOLTeON!

JOLT-ON! 2024: RAILs Around the Country!

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LEGO Groot

When I think of GROOT from Guardians of the Galaxy, it strikes me how much he shares his strength for his friends. No matter the situation, GROOT is found encouraging this band of galaxy trekking guardians. He shows up not only to fight, but also to listen, care, encourage, support, defend, love and laugh with his friends throughout every moment he shares with them…

GROOT is also one of Ethan’s favorite characters! When I consider the friendships he forged in his 22 years, I can see how he encouraged his friends with strength and a gentle, fun-loving spirit.

In these last two years, there are a number of friends that have really stood out with GROOT-like strength as we are walking through the most unimaginable grief of living without Ethan in our days. It is amazing to me to look at how God has provided each of them as encouragement in unique ways. Some I have known for years, some I have only recently met. Some are brave souls whom purposefully show up without our prompting. Some reached out to introduce themselves during the early and hard days when our son first leaped into heaven and are now close at heart. I am blessed to know each and every one and consider them guardians of strength appointed by the Lord Almighty! While I do not always know or understand what HE is up to in my life, I can say for certain the Lord continues to send each of them during times when we need them most…

With that, we sent several LEGO GROOT sets out to our guardian friends around the country during this month of June. GROOT has traveled near and far to places in Illinois, Connecticut, Texas, Wisconsin, and Washington!
It has been a blessing to get to know these friends in far places…

I am forever grateful!

Above is GROOT in Connecticut with my sister in the Lord,
Kim Wan!

Left… GROOT is in Washington State hanging out with David Farache as he moved across the country!

It has been a joy to share these Random Acts In LEGO with them.

Always Remember, JOLTeON!

JOLT-ON! 2024: The Great Wave

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Today, in this second year on Ethan’s Eternity day, we are keeping focus with a LEGO art piece: The Great Wave by Hokusai.

As we have been remembering Ethan in these last ten days through his engineering and builder spirit, we turned our basement into a studio. The purpose: to work through this large memorial build as a family. We have posted below the time-lapse progression of our journey throughout the day. It was finished by days end…

Chapter 1: Unboxing
The Great Wave

Chapter 2: Getting Started!
Segments 1-3

There is a LEGO audio recording offered in the set for historical info on the artist Hokusai found at this link if you are interested!

Chapter 3: Water
Segments 4-6

Chapter 4: Base Layer Complete
Segments 7-8

Chapter 5: Making of a Wave
Segments 9-10

Chapter 6: Frame Work
Segments 11-14

Chapter 7: Finale!
Segment 15

Our finished piece! This has been a peaceful way to remember our son. Thanks for sharing the time with us. Please let us know the impact you have felt in the comments below. We will be pulling all 7 chapters together into a full time-lapse video along with music from Joe Hisaishi’s “Princess Mononoke”. in the next few days.. as you can imagine, Hisaishi’s music was playing in the background as we built all day today!

We hope and pray Ethan’s legacy will inspire you to share LEGO’s and God’s love with others in the days ahead this year!

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